I HATE THIS.
I am in love with a girl named Jelena Dopudj (9/01/10). Me and her dated in the first semester of school in 2010, and she and I were supposed to get married D;
I LOVE her, and though I date other girls and try to move on, I can never forget the way she made me feel and the security I felt with her. She was a truely amazing individual, and one of my closest friends.
I don’t know why, which makes it worse, but she dumped me. Now she hates my guts, no worse…. She’s totally indifferent to whether I’m happy, sad, alive, dead, rich, poor. She can care less…. And I have no idea what I did to deserve it. I tried to be as best I can, but I “wasn’t the person [she] thought I was”.
Why does this happen? She’ll never be my friend again; she’ll never forgive me for the wrong I don’t know of. And I can’t help but think that she’s happy and loving life for the sole reason that ANOTHER guy is making her happy. It kills me inside to think that I could’ve seen her smile, hold her, hear her annoying voice, again….. But I can’t, and someone else who’s ‘better’ than me can…
Fuck my life. ); I wish I could just erase my memory of it all.